Oh, technology how i hate thee.

Why in the world does our computer keep breaking??? we just got it fixed and now its broken again. I can't log into my Yahoo Messanger, its suddenly really slow, and I loathe it! why me? why me? I think our computer hates us.

Old.....

I'm afraid of getting old. I'll admit it. I have fun running around and playing sports and all that youthful stuff. I also have the feeling that when I get old I'll have horrible arthritis and bad knees and such so I wont be able to move around much. Blech. I would rather not have someone wheeling me around and feeding me. Plus if I was ever in an old peoples home I think I would go crazy. Old people like that kind of scare me so I would be cowered in a corner on my bed.... Under my many blankets that keep me warm because I am incapable of doing that now. I guess I should start living my life more abundantly now, huh? It would make sense to do as much as I can while I'm young. That way when I get old I'll be so tired from running so much when I was young that all I will want to do is eat, sleep, and do jigsaw puzzles.... Oh, what is it with old people and jigsaw puzzles???

What Rocks My World....

USC Trojans!!!!!! BEAT THE BUCKEYES!!!!!

hi diddley dee....

.....this life's not right for me. ooo! I'm so good at that! So, maybe this life isn't right for me, but these friends sure are! Have you ever had a friend and wondered why you were friends with them? sometimes they just don't seem like the people you would ever hang out with. but instead of not hanging out with them they are your absolutley best friends. And nothing they could ever do would change that. They brighten every aspect of your day. You could be close to the lowest point of the darkest cavern of sadness and suddenly, BAMADOODLE!!!!!! there they are, your own personal sun. Most of my friends I consider family, meaning I have a countless number of sister and not as many brothers. But they all mean the world to me.

wow....

I was looking at the difference between my emotional status and my sisters, and I am defenantly the most emotional... Well, expressively that is. My sisters tend to keep things to themselves and I like to express it in different ways. If I'm angry, I usually tend to be a little more negative, and I show a little bit of the anger.... With sadness or jealousy, I get quiet and I cry easily... I think you have the idea now. But when I look at Abby and Stephanie, I never really know when they are mad or sad or whatever because they keep it in. We are all so different. I wish I was more like them though. They have been my two biggest role models. (Under Jesus of course). I am very blessed to have sisters like them.

yay....

My post for today shall be this: I hurt, I had a scary dream last night, and I have to do school. whoopee....

I have no idea.....

....why being content with God's unending love is so hard. His love is greater than anyones down here on earth, and yet its not enough. I still need the love of everyone I meet. But when people tell me they love me, (just friendly love of course) I have a hard time believing them because I see all the stuff in me that isn't very lovable.... And this is where the trust issue starts. There aren't a lot of people I trust because I've been hurt or fooled in the past. And sometimes people lose my trust. I either trust them implicitly, or not really at all and then they do that one little thing and BAM. Trust is gone. I even have a problem trusting God. I pray that He will take care of some situations, but then I always take them back and try to fix it myself, ending up in a bigger mess than I was in already.

Friends

Best friends: The people who know your crazy, stupid side and still love you.
Best friends: The people who sit next to you and hold you (or just sit there quietly)when you cry.
Best friends: The people who don't care how dorky you are, or how emotionally unstable you seem
Best friends: The people who think your blonde moments are some of the funniest things and never let you forget them.
Best friends: The people who have almost no secrets from each other and always make sure you are okay.
Best friends: Even though you love the other person to death, you still get on each others nerves sometimes.
Best friends: The people who tell you when you are being too weird or flirty without hesitating.

School.... Blech

So, today was my first day of school. It's gone pretty well. All I have left is an algebra lesson. All my other subjects required reading about 2 pages. hee hee! I also had guitar for an hour. Well, I ended up only doing it for half an hour because what they taught me how to do, I couldn't do for an hour. Tuning and how to hold the guitar. How in heavens name do you do that for a stinkin hour??? So today ended up being easier than I thought. But that usually happens. We will see how tomorrow goes. its much busier than today is.... The one highlight of today is Alice is over!!!! yay!!! And we get to wash a car! wahoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hicks Lake

Ahhhhhh.... I miss Washington already... I mean, I was just getting really excited and packing and such and now its over! I think my favorite thing about Hicks Lake this year was playing football with all the guys. But here is another one of my faults. Every time a guy says a girl can't do something I have to prove them wrong. Take that weekend for example. One guy said that girls weren't included in the "ancient landmarks" of camp sports because we didn't play. And that most girls can't play. So, me being the defender that I am, said, "I'm playing now!" And so I got to play with them every day. And I proved that girls can play football! I also sacked the quarterback. (who happened to be a guy who plays football in school, so he's really good.) =D my weekend was complete. I learned a lot and got to play football. Football is slowly becoming my favorite sport. I never get to play it, but it is SO much fun! Also, when I would go to Rileys Gym with Matt to play basketball this summer, I was usually the only girl. yes! I love being the only girl. I'm not sure why. but anyway, there were times I felt that the guys underestimated me. I would get picked last because I was a girl. Then I would have to go out and prove that I was a decent player. I am so thankful God gave me the ability to play sports! I just need to learn how to be humble about it. I tend to get cocky. (and yet another fault!) I will have another Biblical speech soon. Adios!

Deeper Thoughts Part 2

Romans 12:1-2
"I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that you present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable to God which is your reasonable service. And do not be conformed to this world but be transformed by the renewing of your mind that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God."

Purity. That's what this passage is about. God tells us through Paul that we need to be pure not only in a sexual way, but also in our thoughts and actions. To me, being impure doesn't just mean thinking and doing sexual things. Deceit, jealousy, malice, the list goes on... those are all things that make us impure. Maybe a sexual thought never crosses your mind one day, but all that day your thoughts are jealous, hateful, or vain. Does that mean you are pure? I certainly don't think so. Complete purity has never been easy for me. I confess that most of my thoughts aren't pleasing to God. I use the excuse, "well, I'm only human...." that is one of the worst excuses ever. Yes, I am human, but that doesn't give me the excuse to break God's law. We have the power to put that sin aside attempt to be Christ-like. It's much easier than I thought it was. I always thought, well, I'm never going to get there so why put all the effort into it? hah! oh my goodness. I was so silly. Now, every time an impure thought enters my mind, I pick up my little notebook and i start writing a blog entry. I either choose a topic and research it, or I pick a verse and go from there. It has helped me SO much. I've drawn closer to the Lord, and my faith has become much stronger. And for most of this I thank my best friend, Matt. he has showed me how a true christian should act. Every time we talk, he encourages me. He never says a bad thing about anyone, he cares for everyone, his faith is genuine... I thank God every day that I have a friend like him. So, I have finished now, so I will say goodnight. Goodnight!

ugh....

I am home. I am tired. I wish our car hadn't broken so I could have been home yesterday. I want to talk to my best friends. But those suckers aren't online at 10:20 at night.