yup...

Today I am going to try to help someone. Will it be easy? No. But does that mean I should give up after a few trys? Again, no. God put us here to lead people to Christ. I do not know if this person is truly saved, but here's to hoping. If said person is not, I have my work cut out for me. But I will not give up. I will perservere and make it to the end. Will I help this person? I sure hope so. This person is not a lost cause and I will do everything in my power to help said person.

Philippians 4:13 'I can do all things through Him who gives me strength.'

Is prayer needed? I think so.

:P

so, I could use a lot of prayer. I am relapsing. What its about I cannot say. I just need all the prayer I could get.

God, help me. you know my struggles and thoughts. help me to control them and help them to be thoughts that please you. I love you. :) amen.

oh sigh...

Today is hard... My self esteem is down the tubes. Oh well. Tomorrow is a new day.

Thank you, Lord, for giving me another day to live and glorify you. :)

:)

If I had a theme song, this would be it...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aENY16Mjw6k&feature=related

I love the band and this song.... Fireflies is a really great song too. :)

Happy Thanksgiving, Everyone!!!!!

Praise the Lord! Oh give thanks to the Lord, for He is good. For His mercy endures forever.

Enter into His gates with thanksgiving and into His courts with praise! Be thankful to Him and bless His name!

Today is a day of thanksgiving. What are you thankful for today?

Sigh..

Tomorrow I leave for the armpit of California.... wahoo. Am I excited about this? yes and no. I get to see my sister again, but I have to play gross games. No Bueno... But, I am trying to make the best of this experiance... :) So Lord, keep me positive and help me have a good time! Help me not to think of people back at home and keep me, CeeCee and my mom safe as we drive. I love you alot, God. Amen.

Thought of the Day

God, thank you for a wonderful day. You have given me such a blessed life and I mostly take it for granted... Help me to remember that you are the one who gave me life and to thank you for it every day.

curiosity...

Anonymous, who are you?

Thought of the Day

Matthew 6:34
'Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.'

Heck, I'm not worried about tomorrow... I'm worried about the entire week! There is so much stuff going on. Basketball, babysitting, school, socialization... All that plus other things I want to do that I haven't been told whether I can do or not. But I have to remember to leave it in God's hands. Because if its meant to be, it will happen. I just really hope it does happen. And there I go again. Worrying about it... Lord, help me to give it to you and take nothing back!

About that last post...

It was brought to my attention that in my last post it sounded like I was saying I gossiped alot. Let me correct this. I only talk about experiances I've had with that person. For Example, I talked to person A on friday night and we got into an argument. On saturday I might go to person B, whom I trust completely, and tell he/she about that argument. I get all my anger out of my system, and then I am able to return to person A and speak calmly to them. I try to never gossip. I only let out my frustrations to people that I know don't mind.

Thought of the Day

Proverbs 11:13
'A talebearer reveals secrets, But he who is of a faithful spirit conceals a matter.'

There are a lot of things in life I can't stand, but this one might be the top one. I don't like it when I tell someone something in the strictest confidence and then find out through someone else that the confidant has told everyone and their mother about it. Especially when I'm talking to person A about person B and then person B comes to me and says, person A told me this! well, person A, I told you that and you weren't supposed to tell anyone and you knew that. I have found it harder and harder to trust people. There are few I trust and it takes a while to earn my trust. I want to be the person anyone can come to and not have to worry about me leaking their problems/annoyances/rantings to everyone else.

Thought of the Day

Psalm 33:18
'But the eyes of the Lord are on those who fear Him, on those whose hope is in His unfailing love.'

Boy did I need to read that. God is watching over me because I have hope in His unfailing love! He gives me hope every day through His word. I just have to remember to look there. His love is expressed everywhere! Any book of the Bible you turn to, His love and mercy is there. You just have to take the time to read it. I tend to believe the lie, 'I have no time during my day!' Well, how about all those times I'm bored so I just pop onto the computer? I have plenty of time. I just waste it on this stupid box.

Some days I wish God would smack me upside the head.....

Thought of the Day

2 My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, 3 knowing that the testing of your faith produces perseverance.

These are some of the hardest verses for me to remember. I've been through some junk lately and I know I haven't been happy. There have been times I just want to quit. I don't want to go through that misery anymore! But, the way I see it, to give up is to fail. Jesus didn't give up when he was given over to the mob. He didn't give up when they ripped his back to shreds. He never gave up. He did what He was sent here to do. Had he given up, we would be dead right now. So if I gave up, I feel like I would be giving up on Jesus. He has a plan for me and I need to fulfil it. It's the least I can do after what he did for me. If I make it through this trial and I learn something from it, I have succeeded. And I have have gained perseverance. Although I may want to throw everything away, quitting is not an option. It is a failure.

Thought of the Day

28 And even as they did not like to retain God in their knowledge, God gave them over to a debased mind, to do those things which are not fitting; 29 being filled with all unrighteousness, sexual immorality, wickedness, covetousness, maliciousness; full of envy, murder, strife, deceit, evil-mindedness; they are whisperers, 30 backbiters, haters of God, violent, proud, boasters, inventors of evil things, disobedient to parents, 31 undiscerning, untrustworthy, unloving, unforgiving, unmerciful; 32 who, knowing the righteous judgment of God, that those who practice such things are deserving of death, not only do the same but also approve of those who

Okay, I don't know about you, but if being wordly means being like this, I don't want any part of it. It's disgusting and repulsive! How could you want to be like those people? But then there is a flip side. We are supposed to love them, and love them with an everlasting and never failing love. Just like God loves us. If you proclaim to be a child of God, look at these verses. A child of God would be the exact opposite.

we would be righteous, moral, good, content, we would be truthful, lovers of God, peaceful, humble, inventors of good things, obediant, discerning, trustworthy, loving, forgiving, merciful people. That is what I want to be. So you know what world? You can keep all your nastiness. I don't want it.

Thought of the Day

'18 “If the world hates you, you know that it hated Me before it hated you. 19 If you were of the world, the world would love its own. Yet because you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you. 20 Remember the word that I said to you, ‘A servant is not greater than his master.’ If they persecuted Me, they will also persecute you. If they kept My word, they will keep yours also. 21 But all these things they will do to you for My name’s sake, because they do not know Him who sent Me. 22 If I had not come and spoken to them, they would have no sin, but now they have no excuse for their sin. 23 He who hates Me hates My Father also. 24 If I had not done among them the works which no one else did, they would have no sin; but now they have seen and also hated both Me and My Father. 25 But this happened that the word might be fulfilled which is written in their law, ‘They hated Me without a cause.'

These verses always inspired me. I, for one, never like to be hated. I try to be the person everyone likes. But after reading these verses, I realized sometimes its good to be hated. Because if the world hates you, then apparently its because you are not of it. They hated Me without a cause.... isn't that ridiculous? Usually there is a reason you hate someone. But Jesus, who did nothing worth hating, was hated without cause. He healed people, He preached, and He boggled peoples minds. He challenged everything they were taught to believe. It's hard for me to hate an all-powerful, loving, merciful God. He loves me despite all my flaws! And trust me, there are many. To know that He took every one of my horrible sins and faults and bore them on that horrible chuck of wood, it breaks my heart. How could you sin and not be sorry? Because of that little sin, you cost one man His life.

Job 19:16

'He who keeps the commandments keeps his soul, But he who is careless of his ways will die.'





Well. I think thats pretty straight-forward. Keep God's rules and you will be okay. Foresake them, and you die. well, we can't always keep his commandments now, can we? We are human! of course we can't! thats why God, in His unfailing love and mercy, sent His ONLY son, the King of Kings, to die a beggars death. How can you look at all that He did for you and just turn your back on Him? It's amazing how easy it can be. We get so wrapped up in the world, that we just forget how much He did for us.

Proverbs 18:21

'Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruit.'

Last night I went to Generate. It was amazing. The speaker jumped topics a little bit but one topic really hit me. He showed a video of some famous person who is an athiest talking about how he met a christian. He said the man was very nice, pure, and real. This christian took the time to talk to him. He gave the famous guy a bible, shook his hand and looked him straight in the eyes. But then the famous man with no name said something. He said something to the effect of, 'if the message you guys have is so important and life changing, how could you be cruel enough to not share it?' ......ouch.... that hit me right in the face! I have never been good at sharing with people so after a while I just stopped. I decided to let my life speak for me. Well, right now I don't think my life is telling the right story and sometimes words are needed. I need to be more vocal in my beliefs and stop letting satan deal me empty wallets! So I feel like the verse I posted up at the top goes along with what he was saying. 'Death and life are in the power of the tongue.' The tongue is one of your most powerful weapons! One kind word can totally make someones day, and one wrong word can ruin it. We have the words of everlasting life!!! I don't want to keep them to myself! If you had the cure for cancer, or even war for that matter, would you keep it to yourself? I sure hope not. I would be telling everyone! So don't keep this cure to yourself. Go share it with someone today. :)

Job chapters 1-2: part 2

1 On another day the angels [a] came to present themselves before the LORD, and Satan also came with them to present himself before him. 2 And the LORD said to Satan, "Where have you come from?" Satan answered the LORD, "From roaming through the earth and going back and forth in it."
3 Then the LORD said to Satan, "Have you considered my servant Job? There is no one on earth like him; he is blameless and upright, a man who fears God and shuns evil. And he still maintains his integrity, though you incited me against him to ruin him without any reason."
4 "Skin for skin!" Satan replied. "A man will give all he has for his own life. 5 But stretch out your hand and strike his flesh and bones, and he will surely curse you to your face."
6 The LORD said to Satan, "Very well, then, he is in your hands; but you must spare his life."
7 So Satan went out from the presence of the LORD and afflicted Job with painful sores from the soles of his feet to the top of his head. 8 Then Job took a piece of broken pottery and scraped himself with it as he sat among the ashes.
9 His wife said to him, "Are you still holding on to your integrity? Curse God and die!"
10 He replied, "You are talking like a foolish [b] woman. Shall we accept good from God, and not trouble?" In all this, Job did not sin in what he said.
11 When Job's three friends, Eliphaz the Temanite, Bildad the Shuhite and Zophar the Naamathite, heard about all the troubles that had come upon him, they set out from their homes and met together by agreement to go and sympathize with him and comfort him. 12 When they saw him from a distance, they could hardly recognize him; they began to weep aloud, and they tore their robes and sprinkled dust on their heads. 13 Then they sat on the ground with him for seven days and seven nights. No one said a word to him, because they saw how great his suffering was.

Not only did God allow satan to take everything away from Job, but He also let satan inflict Job with sores. So now Job has nothing but sores. Then his wife says, 'are you still holding on to your integrity? curse God and die!!!' wow.... can these women be any more silly? God tells us to count it all joy when we encounter various trials. He doesn't say 'hey, you encoutered a trial! curse me so I can kill you!' Job would rather live and please God than curse God and die... I think I would too. So, my challenge to you today is: When you go through something bad, don't blame God! If you confess to be saved but you never go through trials, something is off. The way I see it, trials are something God uses to make you stronger. A trial would be the effects of satan. He is obviously at work in your life, trying to get you to follow him instead of the One True God. So in rough times, praise God, don't blame Him.

Job chapters 1-2: Part 1

1 In the land of Uz there lived a man whose name was Job. This man was blameless and upright; he feared God and shunned evil. 2 He had seven sons and three daughters, 3 and he owned seven thousand sheep, three thousand camels, five hundred yoke of oxen and five hundred donkeys, and had a large number of servants. He was the greatest man among all the people of the East.
4 His sons used to take turns holding feasts in their homes, and they would invite their three sisters to eat and drink with them. 5 When a period of feasting had run its course, Job would send and have them purified. Early in the morning he would sacrifice a burnt offering for each of them, thinking, "Perhaps my children have sinned and cursed God in their hearts." This was Job's regular custom.
Job's First Test 6 One day the angels [a] came to present themselves before the LORD, and Satan [b] also came with them. 7 The LORD said to Satan, "Where have you come from?" Satan answered the LORD, "From roaming through the earth and going back and forth in it."
8 Then the LORD said to Satan, "Have you considered my servant Job? There is no one on earth like him; he is blameless and upright, a man who fears God and shuns evil."
9 "Does Job fear God for nothing?" Satan replied. 10 "Have you not put a hedge around him and his household and everything he has? You have blessed the work of his hands, so that his flocks and herds are spread throughout the land. 11 But stretch out your hand and strike everything he has, and he will surely curse you to your face."
12 The LORD said to Satan, "Very well, then, everything he has is in your hands, but on the man himself do not lay a finger." Then Satan went out from the presence of the LORD.
13 One day when Job's sons and daughters were feasting and drinking wine at the oldest brother's house, 14 a messenger came to Job and said, "The oxen were plowing and the donkeys were grazing nearby, 15 and the Sabeans attacked and carried them off. They put the servants to the sword, and I am the only one who has escaped to tell you!"
16 While he was still speaking, another messenger came and said, "The fire of God fell from the sky and burned up the sheep and the servants, and I am the only one who has escaped to tell you!"
17 While he was still speaking, another messenger came and said, "The Chaldeans formed three raiding parties and swept down on your camels and carried them off. They put the servants to the sword, and I am the only one who has escaped to tell you!"
18 While he was still speaking, yet another messenger came and said, "Your sons and daughters were feasting and drinking wine at the oldest brother's house, 19 when suddenly a mighty wind swept in from the desert and struck the four corners of the house. It collapsed on them and they are dead, and I am the only one who has escaped to tell you!"
20 At this, Job got up and tore his robe and shaved his head. Then he fell to the ground in worship 21 and said: "Naked I came from my mother's womb, and naked I will depart. [c] The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away; may the name of the LORD be praised."
22 In all this, Job did not sin by charging God with wrongdoing.

I've been complaining alot. Lately, things have not been working out to my liking. But I have to remember that its all God's plan. Job had a great life full of food, and children, and stuff! I would say his life was going pretty darn well. And then, out of the blue, he loses EVERYTHING. (except his wife.) He has no idea why! He doesn't know that God made a deal with Satan. And after losing everything, is he mad at God? NO! Job worships Him! Wow. When you lose your cell phone, or wallet, or something important, do you fall down and worship God? Most likely not. I know I don't. But Job loses everything and still worships God! It's incredible! Job is one of my biggest role models... We can learn so much from him!

Verse of the Day. :)

Proverbs 19:22
"A merry heart does good, like medicine, but a broken spirit dries the bones."

I was reading through Proverbs yesterday morning and this verse really stuck with me. The night before, I had a really rough evening. I was extremely down-hearted and just not a happy person. But Solomon points out that an unhappy person does nothing affect other people. It makes them unhappy. So would you rather go around dragging other people down with you? or go around making people smile? I have to say, being happy is way easier than being sad. If I go through a day being sad, it just makes me feel horrible at the end. But when I am happy all day it totally makes me feel useful because I have usually made someone laugh. So here is my challenge for you and for myself. Be happy today. Instead of saying that mean thing, say something nice instead. :)

Track meet!

Well, sports are over. I don't know how I feel about that.... I'm happy not to have to go every week, but now I won't see my friends as much. Anyway, the track meet was very prosperous... Is that the word? Oh well. =P haha. I got 2 golds, a silver, and a bronze. =) It was a wonderful day.

wow..

So, I haven't posted in a very very long time. Life suddenly picked up and I've been extremely busy. Here is my update.

School is pretty good. It takes, at most, 2 hours and a lot of it is reading and easy stuff like that. Mmmm Mmmm Mmm Mmm Mmmmmm I'm lovin it. haha!

Sports are wonderful! This basketball season was amazing! I was on the Junior Varsity team and we took 1st place. In our age division we were undefeated. we played 3 varsity teams, beating one, losing to another by like, 4 points and we got decimated by the third. But overall it was one of the best basketball years of my youth. =) Now we are into track season and yesterday we ran 100 meters. The first one I ran, my time was 11.7. I said, 'you say what now? you lie.' the next one we ran my time was 12.3. And again my response was, 'you say what now?' I have never run that fast in my short and insignificant life! It turns out the distance we were running was around a 70 meter. =P I really run a 15.8. ugh. Oh well.

My horse. I love her. She can be a pain in the ear, but overall she's a sweetheart. haha.

I've made a lot of new friends and they are all a lot of fun! there's Sam, Sarah, Shawn, Edgar, Stephen, Krystal, Cody.... haha, lots of friends. =)

I think God and I need to go on a long vacation together. Just Him and I. I've really strayed away from Him lately and I need to get back on His straight and narrow road. I need lots of prayer. hehe. Well, I am off to eat a DELICIOUS dinner! (I love my mother) Ribs, Artichokes, and Sourdough bread. HALLELUJAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Isn't your mouth just full of saliva now? haha!

~peace out~
(oh! look at these awesome people my friend and I figured out how to make! ) o(= and then the woman. o(<= yay! haha

Crush- David Archuleta

This is such a cute song!!!! I love the words.... the link for the song is at the end.



I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush

'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl, are we just friends?
Is there more, is there more?

See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last
Last forever, forever

Do you ever think when you're all alone

All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
This crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yff9nCctMkg

Proverbs 14:12, 16:25

"There is a way that seems right to a man, but its end is the way of death."

This verse confuses me. If we think something is right but it isn't, how are we supposed to know whats really right and whats not? Pray about it of course. But in this day and age do we always think to stop and pray about it right away? I know I dont't near as much as I should. Why do I not? Because i like a lot of things done right then and there. I'm to impatient to wait for an answer. I like my fast-paced life. I don't want to have a lot of spare time on my hands and when I do, I'm never sure what to do with myself. Then after the opportunity has passed, I think to myself, 'oh! I should have sat down, read my bible and prayed'. Well, now that I've officially gone way off subject... hehe. Back to the real reason I'm writing this post.... The verse still confuses me. What does God mean by 'its end is the way of death'? Does He mean that we will go to hell? Or does he mean that we will physically die early? Or what? If I marry the wrong man will it lead to an early death or a spritual one? Help me...