I have no idea.....

....why being content with God's unending love is so hard. His love is greater than anyones down here on earth, and yet its not enough. I still need the love of everyone I meet. But when people tell me they love me, (just friendly love of course) I have a hard time believing them because I see all the stuff in me that isn't very lovable.... And this is where the trust issue starts. There aren't a lot of people I trust because I've been hurt or fooled in the past. And sometimes people lose my trust. I either trust them implicitly, or not really at all and then they do that one little thing and BAM. Trust is gone. I even have a problem trusting God. I pray that He will take care of some situations, but then I always take them back and try to fix it myself, ending up in a bigger mess than I was in already.