I am a girl. And sometimes it stinks.
I want to become a great combination of the "I like to be outside and hike up mountains and play in the dirt and get sweaty" girl, and the "I like to look nice and take good care of myself" girl. I dislike people seeing me as the girly girl who won't get her hands dirty or do anything physical simply because it might mess up her hair/makeup/clothing. So far, I am failing. I care way to much about what people think of me. To anyone reading this, if you have any suggestions for me, please comment with them! I am in desperate need of some de-girlifying. I want to be able to go camping and not care about the dirt or the no bathrooms/showers part of it. (Though camping with a bathroom and a shower is definitely preffered. See? Just trying to hit middle ground. Camping = tomboyish, while shower/bathroom = girly.) I think I will always mind the bugs. There is just no getting around that. I hate bugs with a passion. Maybe I will become an exterminator one day. No, then I would have to actually deal with the bugs. And that's gross. My future husband had better be ready to deal with spiders and roaches and the like, because I'm sure not going to do it. Hah.
I also want to come across smarter. I feel like I come across as such a dumb blonde. It's no fun to feel stupid. I want to BE smarter! Maybe I should take up reading educational books rather than Harry Potter and the Hunger Games... Or maybe I could find the happy medium? Oh definitely. Also my spiritual life. Right now it pretty much stinks. I am having such a hard time trusting God to take care of us and provide for us. I've gone through too many phases of going from loving Him greatly to almost denying His existance. (Bipolar much? Probably...) So this year I am determind to go through the bible in a year. (ish. Seeing that The year has already started and I have not started reading.) But I am going to try to read my bible every night before I go to bed.
Well, now that I have officially procrastinated, I shall go do all the stuff on my list that needs doing. Time to conquer the day!
1 comment:
My suggestion: Be yourself. At all times. Don't worry about if you're being "too girly" or "tomboyish." Just do what you want to do in each situation. You are who you are: Embrace it, live it, don't overanalyze it. Don't try to be someone you're not. You are beautiful and wonderful the way you are.
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